relapse.

oh how wretched am I?
sins that pervade my inner sanctum
make my stomach turn,
my head spin and my conscience faint.

how pathetic am I?
my strength so easily conquered,
my resolve so quickly overriden.

lord rescue me from my
abominations.
seize me from the darkness,
rain your perfect mercy
on my undeserving head.

oh how weak am I?
how easily I falter,
how recklessly I fall.

find me.
save me.
from my
barely beating
intoxicated
overwhelmed
disease-stricken
heart.

hear my cries,
the feeble groaning
of a fallen child.